She said goodbye but is not gone
for she is here
with us
we must meet again here in the shadows
here in the silence of
words, we must hold each other, we
must,
lest the dogs eat us, lest we be found
alone and
shattered without
each other
***
I’m the only one on Sametime/AOL
Even Ricardo is gone; he’s always logged on
So I’m by myself
Riding this dinasaur down to the tar pits
No scenery, no fun, no company
High noon in a ghost town
Nobody to shoot at
Nobody to shoot at me
A casual little jaunt
From a short past to a shorter future
A smooth ride actually
Sure, steady, definite
Dead silent except for the air purifier
That spits a chad occasionally
So quiet that I know I have
A bit of tinnitis
From that straight-piped John Deere A
And the wistling wind on motorcycles
As far as I know I could be on this rock
All by myself
Since I can’t have proof
Of anything
Hurtling into deep space
Yet all I feel is the lumbering dinasaur
So relaxed, so easy
So sure and unalterable
The only one on Sametime/AOL
My humble hands have made
love and lovely things
and now we remember
my humble lips have made
love and said kind things
my thighs have felt your hands
my ears have loved the sound of
your voice
and now we remember
as you say my name
willow trees grow near the stream
we sat beside the river
we fished, we
made love, we
came to be the summer
breeze
***
amazing how incompetence wins hands down
amazing how much credence is given an ignoramus
amazing how reason is drowned out
amazing how group think is such a constant
i must soon declare my war on their stupidity
i must hold to the last piece of my mind
i must protect the small space where i can live
my mind not their mindlessness
my mindlessness not theirs
***
The clock ticks but I cannot hear it.
my spirit is not eased
this long day of moments
here I sit
here I sit
here I sit
chin in hands
chin in hands
***
There are no dreams left
in the dream barrel,
only work to be done and
hope.
Hope will do, to fill a day,
to walk among the words again as if
dropped into clouds, which
wait for me to
fall
silently into the sky
swollen with the tears
of the children
of
war.
Oh, I will fall
in silence
no more.
***