Funeral
somber, muted, hushed
soft sobbing the music
hellos and sadness
family to the left
bikers to the right
children screaming silently
crushed by the shere weight of the crime
a man who left too early
signing a name
leaving a mark
i was here
you weren’t
well
they’re not taking me fuckin alive
i go kicking and screaming
clawing at life
inhaling beauty
grasping armfuls of love
clasping it to my breast
howling in agony
for any opportunity missed
material, burned and scorched
by my breath
my words dangling from clouds
riding the thermals on hawk wings
no tombstone –
memories
remarks
deeds done
laughter passed
love given
arms not somberly folded
but spread wide as the smile not erased
for every moment stolen
mark These words on my life
she lived
she lived
till the last goddamned second
she infinitely lives.
Suicide
if you had to go
i understand
you hurt, i heal
questions eat my heart
coffins hold no soul
moon slivered in a cold summer sky
stars shimmer and have you now
peacefulness your song
i, empty sky
were you trying to live someone elses life
dream others’ dreams
eat too much of the good life
all around you propaganda
filling your ears with pus and gore
family, obligations
these were blessings
not a sign to die
someone has to eat the shit
and spit out flowers
stop the stones from the glass houses
why me.
You never crossed the emotional line
We were such good friends
You called
I answered the phone
You told me on Christ’s birthday
You were leaving
I closed my ears and couldn’t hear you
You never called again
I have an answering machine
Clean, clinical, messages
You’re never there.
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