it never happened

and hasn't happened yet
even though we never stop
hoping.

I've had thoughts
that maybe
some day

even though I know...

For me to realise
she was no longer there.

As I laid my head

a million times
I had to look
even though I knew she left

long ago.

It's been many years
since I convinced myself
that she had gone.

Since then
I've changed postions

so I can see
where she used to be.

I thought of you again
but what's new?

I think of you
every day.

A day doesn't go by
that I don't.

If a day goes by
that I don't

then you'll know that I am not.